i am here waiting...
so i am here waiting...
wondering will i ever see the sun through all of this darkness and dispair...
how did my life grow into this empty shell of existance?
how do i remain in this state of unhappiness...
why is it so hard to leave...
uncertainty is eating me inside out...
my heart holds a million times it's own weight...
a heavy burden is the cost of loving and living...
my life has made me into this shell...
void of anything happiness is...
nothing but a tortured soul...
time goes on... years go by... i remain even when i know it is time to go...
love no longer exists or is not a factor anymore...
circumstances have caused an underlying fear to engulf my perception...
i am no longer the woman i once was...
i carry so much emotional baggage, i am no longer able to love...
will this pain that has harvested and taken up residence in my soul ever part from me?
will life ever seem a small portion better than before?
will i ever see the sun?
i am here waiting...
so i am here waiting...
wondering will i ever see the sun through all of this darkness and dispair...
how did my life grow into this empty shell of existance?
how do i remain in this state of unhappiness...
why is it so hard to leave...
uncertainty is eating me inside out...
my heart holds a million times it's own weight...
a heavy burden is the cost of loving and living...
my life has made me into this shell...
void of anything happiness is...
nothing but a tortured soul...
time goes on... years go by... i remain even when i know it is time to go...
love no longer exists or is not a factor anymore...
circumstances have caused an underlying fear to engulf my perception...
i am no longer the woman i once was...
i carry so much emotional baggage, i am no longer able to love...
will this pain that has harvested and taken up residence in my soul ever part from me?
will life ever seem a small portion better than before?
will i ever see the sun?
i am here waiting...